“The notion that our lives are like the eternal cycle of the seasons does not deny the struggle or the joy, the loss or the gain,
the darkness or the light, but encourages us to embrace it all-and to find in all of it opportunities for growth.”
- Parker J. Palmer
As the world rotates, I spin, checking things off my list.
I find beauty in the forest one morning,
wrap presents come nightfall, and tell myself over and over . . .
You can do this.
“Most birds were created to fly. Being grounded for them is a limitation within their ability to fly, not the other way around.
You, on the other hand, were created to be loved. So for you to live as if you were unloved is a limitation, not the other way around.”
-William Paul Young
It is not the pain of living that overwhelms me,
but rather the paralyzing love that often buldozes my thoughts.
I am learning to allow that love to just be, without limitations.
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““We were all raised to build, build, build. Bigger is better, more is better, faster is better.
It had never occurred to us…that someone would intentionally keep something small, or deliberately do something slow.”
-Shauna Niequist
I am leaning that slowing down is hard work,
in fact it actually is impossible …
It makes me wonder what I might discover
if I could get a good handle on
all the thoughts …
swimming about in my head.
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“The dark does not destroy the light; it defines it.
It’s our fear of the dark that casts our joy into the shadows.”
-Brené Brown
I download the Calm app today thinking it can’t hurt.
I have tried everything else.
I will keep you posted.
It is dark when I get up, dark and rainy.
Squarespace is giving me problems,
taking several tries to get the photo to upload
things are wonky. . .
I can’t help but wonder if it isn’t me.