the now

“Remember, remember, this is now, and now, and now. Live it, feel it, cling to it. I want to become acutely aware of all I’ve taken for granted.”

― Sylvia Plath

I steal ten minute moments throughout each day. Ten minutes of quiet while I fold a load of clothes. Ten minutes, bundled up against the cold, watching the birds. Ten minutes before starting dinner to snuggle with the dog. Ten minutes to follow the rabbit footprints leading out the back gate. All of this is the now and I am working on clinging to it.

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bits and pieces of january

"Well, I can’t eat muffins in an agitated manner. The butter would probably get on my cuffs.
One should always eat muffins quite calmly. It is the only way to eat them."

Oscar Wilde, The Importance of Being Earnest

January was full of magical light, time spent with family, and a birthday celebration for our now five year old. I purposely pulled myself inward, working on ways I might quiet my life down, and explored ways I might fill the empty dark spaces lingering inside me with more meaning, and more self refection. I contemplated this space constantly. Questioning the worthiness of my words and images. Wondering if they speak to anyone else but me? Wondering if that even matters? I hauled myself out of rabbit holes, did my best to turn my back on mindless internet/phone strolling, and started removing myself from tons of unwanted emails from websites I no longer want (which is proving harder than I imagined). I took time to clean all my camera lenses and updated the firmware. I watched a few movies, took a few naps, talked photography with a friend, and relished in those new found moments, when I had nothing I needed to do. Oh, and I made muffins.

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